2008 nen 08 gatsu 23 nichi kinkyuu teisha
totsuzen no kinkyuu teisha . kaerimichi , kyuukou ressha ni notte itara , tochuu no kyuukou no toma ra
naihazuno eki de ressha ga toma ru .( guai no warui o kyakusama no kyuugo notameni kinkyuu teisha
itashi mashita ) tono housou ga iri , suunin no ekiin sanga awata dashiku iki majii , shiba
rakushita nochini mata ressha ha ugoki dashi ta . saido anaunsu ga iri , saigo ni ( kinkyuu
teisha botan wo oshi tekudasatta hou , makotoni arigatou gozaimashita ) tono shashou
karano hitokoto wo kii tatokini , nazedarou , boku ha naki tai kimochi ninatta .
0 toki sugi , ekimae no supa de 500ml no happou sake wo kai , chobichobito
nomi nagara tsuitachi niattakotowo omoidashi nagara kaeru . moya ga kebutte ita . nani
kaga tachi kome teita . nandemonaiyounasaattoshita yoru no sora no kumo ga uroko no
younitayutouteita . biru hachoppirinurukute , ku kute , konkon to
shiteite , amarioishiitoha omoe nakute , sukoshidatte yoppa raukotoha
dekinakatta . moji toha kotoba toha , koukoku toha , soshite shigoto tohanannanoka .
soregadonnamonodearunokaha , sono gainen noyounamonoha konpon kara jiriki de
tsukuriage teikuhokani , jibun wo sukuu michi hanainodato omotte iru . sorenanoni
genjitsu hasouhaikazu , kuyashi ikeredo uki kusa noyouni tadayotte iwa rerugamamani
kaku kotoshikiri . nanika shinakerebanaranai , to itsutta tte naniwo shiteiinoka
kaimokukentou gatsukanaikotobakari . tsuruhashiwo uchi tsuketemo , tsururitsururito
subette hazure te , koko saikin yattakotodeumakuitta tameshi nadohotondonai .
hiruma , dare nimo hanashi wo kika renaiyounishite beranda de chimu no dezaina to
ii au . o tagai no shigoto ni taisuru kangaekata no chigai karaka , shigoto gaumaku mawatte
inaikotohawakatteita . demo boku ha , kopiraita nara kai tamonode
dezaina ha egai tamonode hyouka sarerubekideatte , sore igai ha ninotsugi dato
omotte iru . mawari no nin nokotonadodoutomo omotte inaishi , umaku riyou suru
kotoshika kangae teinai . seizei jama dakehashinaidekureto negau bakarida .
to , sou omotte irunodato jibun demo omotte ita . daga menomae de koe wo furuwa se
nagara shinken ni hanasu kanojo wo mite itara , soremo kuukyo na kokoro kara deta itsuwari deatte
hontou ha jibun datte ( chimu no wa wo motte takashi shitosu ) kotowo daiichi ni kangae rukotoga
utsukushi itowakatteite , demosoutobakari itsutte irarenai aseru jibun gairu
kotoni taishi te jibun de jibun ni akire teshimai , sonotokiha hiru sugidattanodakedo
sekai ga makkura ni mie te , nanimokamo kaku kotokara nige teshimaitakunatta .
ikura hon wo yonde monanno hara no tashi nimonaranai , koushite burogu wo kaku
kotonantenanimo umidashi teinai . shigoto igai no moji , katsuji , bunshou , issai no
gengo teki katsudou wo yame te , menomae no shigoto dake furan ni torikumi , soushitedokomade
ike runoka ittan tameshi temiyoukatomo omotta . aasoremo itsuwari , hontou ha shigoto mo
yame te , dokoka hitoritabi ni dete , oosouda , motto raku na shigoto naikanaato
omotte , tenshoku saito wo hirai taga , soremo aho rashiito omotte suguni toji ta .
koukou no bukatsu denokotowo omoidasu . touji no iwa kuchi kantoku kara iwa retakotode ima mo
kokoro ni fukaku sasa tte nuke nai kotoba gaari , soreha ( omaeha umai noni , nin ni
sono gijutsu wo oshie youtoshinai . motto kouhai ni oshie teyare . moshi oshie rukotode
kouhai ni nuka rerunjanaikato omotte runarasoreha machigai da . sonnakotode
aitsuragaomaeyori umaku narukotonantenai . jibun nokotobakari kangae te
naide , motto chimu nokotowo kangae ro ) sono kotoba ga , senretsu ni omoidasa reta .
aa , shigoto ttemuzukashiinaa . taihen de taihen de , rikkyakuten wo katame te
irukato omoe ba , jitsuha kezutte itakotoni kiga tsukazu , futo mawari wo miwa taseba
nanimonakunari , marude jibun ga oki no tori shima ka yonakunitou nidemonattakanoyoude
ima nimo nami nisarawaresou . kyou hakorekara shokuba no joshi to fujisan ni iku yotei ga
arunodakedo , totemosonna kibun dehanaku , ame ga futte nagare tekuretaradore
dakeiika . ruterute bouzu demo tsukutte yaroukato omou hodo . aa , aa
